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Been a long time

Wow. I haven't journal-ed in ages. Let's see, since last December anyway.

If I could put a title to the last couple of years it would be 'ENDINGS'. Endings happen. Yup. But one right after the other is catching me off guard.

I have cared for multiple cats for sixteen years. Seven to be exact. As of last month they are all gone. Three of them gone in two years. Two put to sleep because of sickness and one, my last and youngest (12) just took off and hasn't come back. It is a very strange feeling. I have been anticipating their final days, wondering which one would go, how, and in what order. But it has happened and they are all gone from my life. I won't take in any more animals, but, instead, hold the dear memories of my 'friends'.

Grandchildren. Another ending. The oldest are both in grade school now. I hardly see them anymore. I was part of their care twice a week, picking them up from school, or staying with them while 'mom' slept after her night shift at the hospital. That ended last September.

My grand-twins have been in my care two days a week for two and a half years. Their mother is putting them in pre-school starting October 1st, on the days that I take care of them, Friday and Monday. Guess I can't complain, because I have been an advocate for pre-school simply because I know they must be prepared for their world. I am happy they will be going to work with 'Mom' and busy socializing all day, but I will miss them. Another 'ending'.

So here I sit and spend my day trying to figure out how to fill the void left by the inevitable endings. Hope I don't fill it with regret, only happy memories. I took lots of pictures everywhere we all went. I'm thinking my new hobby should be creating picture albums/scrapbooking.

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catmother
Aug. 25th, 2014 05:30 pm (UTC)
Thanks. I seem to feel indifferent to everything around me now. Not sure if that is a good thing.
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